Ok, I know that you all have been through this, hence having the tracker. So I’ve been getting a few exact tracks from my ex and I was really excited to see that he’s been checkin up. However, I noticed that a few of them were coming from the myspace search…which is what his gf does to see my page; he’ll just go to a mutual friend’s page to find my page. she looks all the time! it’s kinda making me mad. Well, anyways, he was tracked 3 times today and I knew it was her. I looked to see if she had logged on. she had but she updated her status around the same time she looked at my page. he would never look at my page while she was home so I know it was her.

Again, the updates that I’ve seen are all so dumb….talking about how amazing their relationship is and how much he loves her…..LAME!! omg, seriously if I was THAT happy with my relationship I wouldnt be posting it all over myspace like it appears she does. Who knows tho, maybe she has something completely different when I dont look but whenever I do look she’s bragging about her relationship. kinda just venting cuz I wanna slap the b*tch and tell her to take her insecurities elsewhere.

Have any of you ever done this?? I have been with plenty of guy/girls but I have never been tag teamed by two guys. I want to though! I just don’t know if my little frame could take two massive cocks bumping and grinding deep up inside of my tight little pussy and ass. Ouch!! Maybe after I got used to it after a few times it woudn’t hurt anymore? I dunno but my girl Brooke sure as shit doesn’t seem to mind having a big throbbing cock in her ass and pussy.

Check her out with these free clips.

And one MORE just FOR FUN!!

I live in an apartment building and we’re not allowed to have pets. I know some people bring them to dogsit or whatever but I hardly even notice. Well, since this morning a dog has been howling. At first I didnt know what it was and it was freaking me out. The howls are very long and it’s been right above my bathroom (which could be their bathroom too).

Earlier, I heard someone taking a shower but didnt hear them leave but not sure if i would notice that either. They could have left and just locked the dog in the bathroom, but I’m still worried. This has been going on for a while! I called my landlord and they said they’d check it out but they didnt. I’m concerned that maybe something happend to the person. Paranoid? What do you think? If I was watching a dog I wouldnt leave it in the apartment if I had to leave… I’d find someone else to watch him or bring him with.

Now I have realized that the world is my stage and that if one is so ridiculous as to forget my face
who would want them in my life then anyway?? I cannot change the past so why continue to rehash???

Apparently a mistake is more than that… it’s a sign of never changing so let me help to blow smoke up your ass. Get off that pedestal that you  climbed so well and realize that life is full of shit. It’s how you handle it that  lasts . Can’t believe that this situation has actually caused me to reevaluate myself…
especially since I know nothing of the bad that I caused. So if you want to pick the wrong road I hope you can sleep with yourself. I know that I certainly can since I’ve said my peace.  I no longer live in remorse but can you live with yourself?

Watch her fingerfuck that sweet little pussy here.

my brother got me thinking… surprise surprise… about what it means to grow up… from the years of childhood to the days of what our father likes to claim as “the real world”… well, if you don’t mind… if this is just now the real world… then where have I been residing the past several years?? the fake world? and then… this book that I have been reading is not only mind opening… but the clarification of how I have seen this “real world” my whole life… the Insights… there are nine… and they fall into sequence…

“The First Insight occurs when we take the “coinsidences” seriously… these “coincidences” make us feel there is something more, something spiritual, operating underneath everything we do…” (The Celestine Prophecy, An Adventure, Redfield, James; Warner Books Inc., New York, N.Y. 1993, 119).

“The Second Insight institutes our awareness as something real. We can see that we have been preoccupied with material survival, with focusing on controlling our situation in the universe for security, and we know our openness now represents a kind of waking up to what is really going on” (Redfield; 119).

“The Third Insight begins a new view of life. It defines the physical universe as one of pure energy, en energy that somehow responds to how we think” (Redfield, 119).

“The Fourth exposes the human tendency to steal energy from other humans bu controlling them, taking over their minds, a crime in which we engage because we so often feel depleted of energy, and cut off. This shortage of energy can be remedied, of course, when we connect with the higher source.  The universe can provide all we need if we can only open up to it… That is the revelation of the Fifth Insight” (Redfield, 120).

…”think about it: when something occurs beyond chance to lead us forward in our lives, then we become more actualized people. We feel as though we are attaining what destiny is leading us to become. When this occurs, the level of energy that brought on the coincidences in the first place is instituted in us. We can be knocked out of it and lose energy when we are afriad, but this level serves as a new outer limit which can be regained quite easliy. We have become a new person. We exist at a higher energy, at a level-get this-of higher vibration…”(Redfield, 120).

she thought to herself… I DID do it again… but is that really a surprise… she contemplates her world, her existence, her worth… if that’s what she could be known for… worth… or unworthy… this is the name of this strained woman’s brain… forgetting that life is not a game just a misery of opulance. blindeness in fame… full of self blame, self loathness self hate… but everyone swears…. it’s all just——fake… cause they know their own mind, and they understand their own soul, but just cause she doesn’t isn’t the deal breaker of all… she’s been left behind, she has been the leaver… she has been the one in vain… she has been the false believer… over it all… she claims again to herself… don’t listen to this foolishness… that you continue to feed yourself.

Look at what my sexy momma Veronika is getting herself into now. LMAO. Why is my bestfriend such a dirty little whore? No wonder she is always getting herself into trouble and asking me to come and bail her out!!! Hahaha. Only her.

WATCH HER SUCK MORE COCK.

Ok…so in the past two weeks I’ve seen the future 3 times…and it’s occurred all three times.

Time 1:

At my agency and the CEO needs some IB proffin, advil, something right? So I run downstairs to our “Future Beauty Finds” bin and lo and behold…some Motrin IB by Johnson and Johnson. I come upstairs and recommend we hit up Motrin for sponsorship cause lord knows they have the budget for it…but Boss was on the phone and I just dropped it after that one time of bringing it up… Jump forward a week and Boss is in Vegas at Magic, and CEo gets off the phone and says, “while our sales team is in Vegas, I just talked to Johnson and Johnson about Sponsoring Motrin”. I ask, “did they contact us, or did we contact them?” CEO replies, “They contacted us”…

that was the first instance…

Time 2:

Almost wore a shirt today, and couldn’t cause it was dirty. This is a shirt i got for free from the Agenda trade show in San Diego in 2006… Just stumbled across the website that sells it today, same day…random…? I think not.

Time 3:

Again today. We have a company dog named Justice, He is an Australian Blue Heeler and he’s like a hyena and asks like a dingo. Needless to say he’s an energetic little fucker… He comes in and we all know the make sure he doesn’t get into the waste baskets, cause he’s a little scavenger too…So i pick mine up to put on a chair and I say outloud to myself… “ya, like this is going to help, he’s just going to jump on a desk to get to it if we do this!” I was kidding by the way. Not 4 seconds later he jumps onto CEo’s desk not 15 feet away… Again, did I call it or what??

oh, and now that I think about it, there is a …

Time 4:

Friday Tecia, our other associate producer had emailed me about featuring an awesome bike but I forgot bout the email til yesterday. So I suddenly thought of it and said to tecia, “what’s up with the bike again?” and she says, ” that’s funny you just brought that up cause I JUST received an email from him regarding it”

so ya…that’s my seeing the future…